November Books

I go through phases with reading. I can go 4 months without reading a book, and then read 4 books in two weeks. Whenever I pick up a book after a long time away, I remeber how good for me it is, to get lost in a book and forget about any stress in my everyday life. I’ve read 3 books this month, one ‘self-help’, and then I decided to go explore some thriller books- which is a completely new genre for me. 

reasons to stay alive – matt haig

Wow, wow, wow. This book has made me fully open up about my mental health struggles- i’ve already mentioned it many times on this blog. It inspired me to start really trying to learn how to cope with my anxiety and depression, and also realise no matter how bad things may be now, things can always get better- and that’s what I want to make happen. Every page of this book I was struck by how much I related to what was written, things I didn’t even realise other people thought or did, I thought I was the only one going through some of these things. This may be one of my favourite ever books. Notes on a Nervous Planet is next on my list of Matt Haig books to read, and I’ve heard it’s just as good.

The woman in the window – a.j finn

I gave this book four stars on goodreads. I loved it. Unlike a lot of novels I couldn’t predict what was going to happen, I loved the thrill. I was on the edge of my seat for the entire time. The main character made me feel a bit uneasy at times, an agoraphobe and an alcoholic, but for some reason this kept making me think about my own mental health, I related a lot to the ‘agoraphobe’ part of the character- and this frightened me. Maybe I am also agoraphobic, but I suppose that’s for antoher time. Overall, this book was amazing, I read it all in two sittings, I didn’t want it to end. A.J Finn is now definitly on my list of favourtie authors, I cant wait to see what he comes up with next.

the woman in cabin 10 – ruth ware

I thought this book was incredible- I’d seen mixed reviews online, but I decdied to give it a go anyway. I had no idea what was going to happen, I was left guessing the entire time. It was a really fun and exciting read. Although I feel as though the ending was a tad rushed after such a long build up. I’m definitely going to be checking out more of Ruth Ware.

Annesar x

My Symptoms

I recently read “Reasons to Stay Alive” by Matt Haig. This book is now like a bible to me. He wrote about many things that I’ve never been able to find the words to describe. He made me realise that the feelings I’m having are normal – I’m not the only one feeling this.

Throughout the book he writes lists. I love lists. So, I’ve taken inspiration and adapted his lists to fit my own personal journey.  This is list one.

My Symptoms

  • An aching sensation in my legs, hands, chest, throat and at the back of my head
  • An inability to contemplate the future (a constant feeling that I’m going to die young)
  • Scared of going mad
  • Separation Anxiety
  • Constant sense of dread
  • Mental and physical exhaustion
  • Like I’m useless
  • Chest tightness
  • Lost
  • Sad
  • A sense of being cut-out from another reality, disconnected
  • Claustrophobic
  • Like I’m constantly on the verge of a panic attack
  • Shaking
  • Overly emotional
  • Always wanting to nap/sleep
  • Always worried
  • Overthinking
  • Feeling of falling while standing still

Annesar x